Thursday,20/11/2008

I feel so idiot and guilty...Well i'm feeling like i've living in my own world in the dark...I know i'm actually quite *rough* in many ways...But I just simply can't control myself.Its like another person is controlling me and doing all the bad stuffs...I tried not to think about it,but whenever it drift across my mind,ITS JUST THAT IM FEELING SO LIKE YOU DONT EVEN KNOW YOURSELVE...Like doing bad things and you feel guilty...Yeah,I feel that too.I want to be happy and so does everybody.I can't make them happy but infect,i make them hate me...Thats why i'm feeling low and always like *OUT OF MY MIND*I think in my Life,all around me are worthless...God,am I always being like this because I think its cool...Most of the times,I get hit from Ash...He likesto use the ball and hit me for no reason.Which is today.When he use the ball and hitted me,I suddenly feel like punching him with my own hands.*seems like its condsidered as killing him*hahas^^But I can't as theres always a punishment in the end when u did something serious...*SIGH*I feel like a total Loser...thats what my mind always say.But to me,I know that God always encourage me.In troubles,he will always help me to solve it.I never once in my Life hear his real voice or see him in my dream or somewhere.I will always know that he will be by my side everytime,guiding my path...Yeah...I hate it when people makes fun of names at others.I dont like,do you?Of course not.Its okay...Well I always see ppeople making fun of others.And I hated them for doing it.Its not my character or something,I dont control them.But I have the right to judge my Life and nobody can ever tell me what to do...o.Owell will write as much more then this if i can...^^See ya Losers...ooops,should be BYE!